Learning to love my post-baby body

Almost a year on from having my baby and I am finally coming to terms with what having a baby has done to my body.  Gone are the days of a nice flat stomach and a good pert pair of boobs.  The only thing that I’m pleased with on my body since having Oliver is that I have lost all of my baby weight and more.  I put it wholly down to breastfeeding and not eating enough healthy calories in the day though!  Once I stop breastfeeding, I’m pretty sure my weight will creep back up!

The other day I was just getting in the shower and I stood looking at myself in the mirror.  All I could look at were my boobs.  Whenever I hear anyone speak about breastfeeding, they speak about how you get this great set of boobs.  You will never hear me saying that.  Sometimes I want to cry when I look at mine.  Oliver will only feed from one side as he refused to feed from the other.   This has left me with boobs that look like they’ve come from two different people.  One is a nice, pert, normal sized boob.  It looks just like it did before I got pregnant.  The other is big, it reaches a fair bit lower and quite frankly looks ridiculous in comparison.

A few months ago I went to have my boobs measured.  The shop assistant who was fitting me straight away said to me ‘oh have you just fed off of that (smaller) side?’  When I replied saying no, he only feeds from this (bigger) side she was quite embarrassed and apologised straight away.  I brushed it off, but it left me feeling even more self conscious than I already did.  I know that it’s noticeable in close fitting clothing.  My bra is practically empty on one side.  When I stop breastfeeding I know that my boob will reduce in size, but I also know what I will be left with.  A saggier version of what I already have!

But what I also see when I look in the mirror is a single boob that has sustained the life of my son for a whole year.  For the first 6 months he solely relied on this boob to nurture him, to help him grow, to keep him alive.  It comforted him, it fed him, it did the job it was intended for.  I have learnt that getting upset with my appearance is pointless.  Nothing is going to change.  Finally I decided that rather than being embarrassed by my lopsided boobs I should embrace them.   They’re part of me, part of my body, part of my parenting journey.  Quite frankly, the only people who will ever see them are my family, and they don’t care about what they look like!

What I’m secretly hoping is that if I am lucky enough to have another breastfeeding journey that the next baby opts for the other side.  Just to even things up, but knowing my luck they will have the same preference!  But for now I have realised that even though I have two different looking boobs, it doesn’t matter.  All that matters is that me and my baby are both healthy and we are happy.  Being a mum has changed my whole life for the better, a change to my body is insignificant in comparison.  So I have embraced the change, I have learnt to love my new post-baby boobs.

Pink Pear Bear



Review: Kidloland App

When I was approached to review the Kidloland app, I was interested to try it to see whether it was worth getting for an under 1.  Generally we try not to give Oliver too much screen time, and we don’t have any apps for his entertainment.  I know that eventually we will have to embrace technology in our lives, and I think the Kidloland app is a great way to use technology in a positive, educational way.

When I downloaded the app I was surprised to see how much content there was on it.  It covers so much, nursery rhymes, phonics, numbers, colours, shapes, games, tracing exercises, and plenty of songs.  Recently we’ve started singing all of the nursery rhymes to Oliver.  He has begun to recognise the songs and actions, even trying to do some himself!   Oliver loves the rhymes on the app, he bops up and down to the music and loves watching the animations on screen.

I can see how the app would be appealing for children to use.  It’s aimed at children between 0-5, and it’s definitely designed with that in mind. The app is easy to navigate and has plenty of interactive features.  The pictures are all really brightly coloured, so would definitely appeal to a child.  When testing it out we mostly used the nursery rhyme section.  This area is great to teach rhymes as well as remind me all of the words!

I feel that this app will be much more useful once Oliver is a little older (even just 3 or so months).  Currently he just hits the screen when he gets excited with what’s happening on it.  I think it will be really useful when he’s learning his alphabet, numbers and phonics.  The app will easily keep a child entertained for a good period of time.  The best part of keeping them entertained is that they will be learning as well.

I would definitely recommend this app, it would be perfect for long journeys or to use for some quiet time.  It’s available on the Apple Store, Google Play and Amazon App Store.  There are free and paid versions of the app, so you can test it before you commit to a subscription.

Disclaimer: We were offered a 6 month subscription in return for an honest review.

Dear Bear and Beany
The Pramshed

10 reasons I’m #Rocking Motherhood

I was asked to complete the #RockingMotherhood challenge by Claire at The Pramshed and Natalie at Hello Cuppies.  Thank you so much for the tag, I think it’s the hardest tag I’ve completed!  It’s hard to admit that you’re rocking motherhood, and even harder to come up with 10 things that you know you’re doing well.  After a few hours I’ve managed to compile a list which in my eyes are why I rock at being a mum.

We’ve made it this far

I must be doing something right!  In 11 months we haven’t had any serious injuries, which is pretty good going considering my child is a huge daredevil.  Bar a few bruises from falling off the bed we haven’t had any injuries!  I’ve never forgotten him or left him behind when I’ve gone out either, considering I’m pretty forgetful that’s good going!

I’ve been able to breastfeed

We are at 11 months of breastfeeding and I am so proud of myself.  Breastfeeding was the one thing I was determined to do when I became a mother.  It’s been hard work being solely responsible for feeding my baby but I’ve made it through.  I’m lucky I have such a supportive husband (plus he loves that he’s saved a small fortune on formula!).  I love breastfeeding and will be sad to wean him when he turns 1, hopefully my next breastfeeding journey will be just as easy.  I know that my milk can keep my baby happy and will always solve a problem.

He’s independent

I’ve always given Oliver freedom, I let him play and explore as much as he wants to, without following his every move.  I am always pretty laid back with what he does, unless he’s going to hurt himself or damage something.  By doing this I now have a baby who will happily go off and explore a new place by himself, without the whole ‘I can’t be parted from you’.  He loves exploring and finding new things to play with.

I love my baby..

..and he knows it.  There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t tell him I love him, scrap that, there probably isn’t an hour!  I would do anything for that little boy.  I love our cuddles and the kisses he gives me (even if they’re mouth open slobber kisses).  It’s so important for children to know they’re loved.

We go with the flow

I’ve never been one to have a rigid routine.  I know people who won’t go to things or bring their children along because it goes on a bit later than their child’s bedtime.  I don’t care if Oliver is up until 9pm one night because he will still go to sleep at a normal time the next day.  If we just go with the flow, our lives are so much less stressful and it means I don’t spend hours stressing about stupid little things that ultimately don’t matter.


I have made sure that Oliver regularly sees all of our families, because I want him to have good relationships with them all.  I don’t want to go to a family meet up and have him walk up to his Uncle and ask what their name is.  If he doesn’t feel able to come to his parents,  I want to feel he can speak to someone else in the family.  Family is so important and should be treasured.


It took me until Oliver was 6 months to brave the world of baby classes.  I hate being in new and unfamiliar places with people I don’t know and I am useless at making conversation with strangers.  When I finally plucked up the courage to go to the classes, a few of the girls invited me to go along for a coffee afterwards.  5 months later and we usually meet up at least twice a week.  Oliver loves meeting up with his buddies and I’ve realised how important it is for us both to have mummy and baby friends.

I always put him first

I do things I never expected I would just to make sure Oliver is happy.  He wouldn’t sleep unless he was next to me, so we co-slept for a short time (something I swore I would never do) and  I lie with him until he falls asleep because if I don’t he cries.  I don’t worry about not having much me time, because I love spending time with him!

I’m going back to work

When I go back to work and I miss him like hell, I can think, I’m doing this for you.  By working I can afford to keep a roof over our heads, to take him on days out, to pay for classes he wants to go to.  I think it will also show him the importance of work, and that women aren’t just homemakers.  On the days I’m not working I know I will treasure our time together so much more and enjoy every minute.

I’m the best I can be

I rock motherhood, because I’m a mum.  I put 100% in all of the time. By doing this I have a happy, healthy little boy and that’s all I need to know I’m doing a great job.

I tag:

Kayleigh at Little B and Me

and anyone who is reading this and yet to complete it!

The rules can be found here.


Keep Calm and Carry On Linking Sunday
Pink Pear Bear

The Bedtime Tag

I have been tagged by the lovely Lisa at That British Betty and Abbie at Mama Wilkos to complete the Bedtime Tag.  Thank you very much for tagging me!  Bedtime is one of my favourite times of day, I love getting snuggled up in bed and sleeping, so it’s hopefully going to be nice and easy for me.

Describe your usual bedtime routine.

I usually have a shower and wash my hair.  If I’m going to bed earlier than usual I like to have a bath and use a Lush bath bomb or bubble bar.  I then usually leave my hair to dry a bit whilst having a flick through Instagram and taking my makeup off and then blow dry my hair.  Stu and I then usually have a bit of a natter about something we have seen or done, and then lights out!

What are your favourite pyjamas?

My Harry Potter PJ’s.  As an avid fan, they’re a must have!  They’re just stripey legging bottoms and a grey baggy tshirt, they’re really comfy!  I can’t wear anything too warm as Stuart is a real life hot water bottle.  I regularly wake up sweating because he’s lying against me!

What is your current bedtime reading?

I’m not currently reading anything (naughty me). I have had Me Before You on my bedside table for ages, I just haven’t got round to reading it, it’s hard to find time with a little one and when I’m not too tired.

What would I find on your bedside table?

My Emma Bridgewater radio, my phone, my steroid cream for my hands, a glass of water and *usually* my lamp (but some little bugger pushed it off and has broken it!)

What scent makes you sleepy?

I can’t think of anything that makes me sleepy.  I think lavender is a relaxing scent for bedtime though.

What is your usual bedtime and wake-up time?

I’m a definite night owl, I go up to have a shower at about 10pm then get into bed at 11-11:30pm.  Stuart always moans because I take so long to get into bed! I usually have one or two wake up calls in the night from Oliver, depending on whether he is being nice or not!  Then I’m up for the day at anytime between 8:30-9:30am depending on Oliver.  (I know, a 11 month old who lies in that long! He’s very well trained)

What are your top three bedtime products?

A good set of sheets, my favourite sheets are the Emma Bridgewater ones.  They’re a lovely silky cotton.  I use Simple face wipes at bedtime to remove my make up and just cleanse my face, they make me feel nice and refreshed for the night.  Finally, a good pillow!  I have a super thick pillow, it’s basically like having two pillows in one.  I love my pillow and if I can take it away with me I will because no one else’s are as nice.

What is your most common sleeping position?

I tend to sleep on my side or my stomach.  It was a nightmare when I was pregnant as I could never get comfy because I couldn’t sleep on my tummy.

Do you have anything you like to take to bed with you?

My Postman Pat teddy.  I know, I know, I’m 26 years old and I take a teddy to bed!  Stuart HATES him, he moans he’s all scratchy as he’s so old.  He was actually knitted for my mum by a colleague when she was younger and she gave him to me when I was little.  He’s probably over 30 years old!

What is your worst bedtime habit?

Checking my phone before I go to sleep.  I usually like to have a last look on social media before I go to sleep.  It’s a bad habit and one I would like to break!

I tag:

Annie at Mama Willmot

and anyone who is reading and wants to complete the challenge!

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Granny’s Banana Loaf Cake

This week I have finally got my baking mojo back!  Banana cake has got to be one of my favourites and it’s one of the cakes I remember from my childhood.  Sorry Mary Berry but your banana cake just doesn’t cut it in my home!  My recipe is one that has been passed down the generations, my mum got it from her mum and she’s passed it on to me.  I’ve adapted it from my Granny’s original recipe, as she added dates and lemon juice, which I have never done.  I ended making three of these loaf cakes on Saturday (I had a lot of bananas left!).  I took two to a big family lunch on Sunday, word has it Stuart’s 3 year old cousin liked it so much that she asked to take one home with her!


Here’s the recipe:

  • 2 ripe bananas
  • 2 eggs
  • 3oz caster sugar
  • 6oz butter/marg (I use Stork as I find it brings the lightest sponges)
  • 8oz plain flour
  • 3tsp baking powder



  1. Preheat the oven to 165 celsius and grease and line a loaf tin.
  2. Mix the butter and sugar together.
  3. Whisk the eggs and mash the bananas, add both to the mixture and mix together.
  4. Sieve the flour and baking powder into the bowl and mix until thoroughly combined.
  5. Pour into the loaf tin and bake for 1 hour.



I hope you try the recipe out because it’s the best banana cake I’ve ever tasted (If I do say so myself)!  I’ve added a pinnable recipe card below so you can keep it for later reference.


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